kunwari, ako ikaw.... ~PaRa sA IsAng KAibiGaN~

im trapped in a world i created for myself. im stuck between wanting and longing for something to end then wishing and hoping that somehow everything will find its place at the right time and the exact moment i needed them to be. im so tired of being in the wrong place with the wrong person with the wrong feelings, hoping against hope that somehow it will all end someday. im tired of waiting for that someday. i want to find a place for myself. somewhere peaceful where it wouldn't hurt to smile because then i would truly be happy. i want the world to know i am free because i am and i can love whoever i choose to, be with him night and day, stay in his arms every minute. more than anything else i want to be happy, want so much for every wish to come true, every dream to be a reality, every smile to be real. but i know, i know, all the same i still am. i keep on doing what i do best that no one in his right mind would understand. but i do understand them. its just that when im all by myself and i needed someone to just be there and know, sometimes i wish there'd be that someone who will. and no matter how many times i tell that person that i know, i know but still i love, he'll stay. but who in his right mind would?

i know i know i dont make sense. this is crap.